Regression and how much it sucks

Today I cried. I cried over the fact that I felt like I was losing my son. It felt awful. This is regression.

Regression is when you see your child slip into a state of being and you can sometimes rescue them from it. I'm not sure I can rescue my son from his regression. Yep, it sucks. I hate it. It makes me angry. How dare you steal my son from me when we've worked our tails off to get him to this point.

But I smile through my tears, I'm not done. I'm not done fighting. If my son regresses, I'll find a way to reach him. If he regresses to a point where I can't get to him, I will love him as who he is. I will love him for his normal.

Listening to this song helped me a lot. I'm not giving up. NOT ONE BIT.